urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:matadorr matadorr matadorr 2006-06-05T22:58:11Z urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:matadorr:7390 2006-06-05T22:58:11Z 2006-06-05T22:58:11Z -love is the last person you think about before you go to sleep and the first person you think about when you wake up- <br /><br />heard that in a movie <br /><br />is that true? urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:matadorr:6998 2006-06-03T02:24:08Z 2006-06-03T02:24:08Z i dont know. i never do. i never will. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:matadorr:6682 2006-06-02T01:25:58Z 2006-06-02T01:25:58Z <a href="http://photobucket.com" target="_blank"><img src="http://i5.photobucket.com/albums/y157/spify/Picture191.jpg" border="0" alt="Photobucket - Video and Image Hosting"></a> urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:matadorr:6576 2006-05-31T03:25:49Z 2006-05-31T03:25:49Z <font size="50"> change.</font> urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:matadorr:6146 2006-05-29T01:51:30Z 2006-05-29T01:51:30Z as i skate past every square, i get closer.<br /><br /><br /><br />its time to forget the past. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:matadorr:5889 2006-05-29T01:50:37Z 2006-05-29T01:50:37Z as i skate past every square, i get closer. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:matadorr:5813 2006-05-26T02:57:51Z 2006-05-26T02:57:51Z fuckingbhfdfgdsfuisv josahufhjasf'<br />d ifjojfasga<br />gdghjfigvjfigjdoh<br />gfhgsihojbfbjhfgobh <br />fiogjfg ok. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:matadorr:5422 2006-05-26T02:51:39Z 2006-05-26T02:51:39Z growing up is bullshit urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:matadorr:4883 2006-05-20T03:31:50Z 2006-05-20T03:31:50Z if she only knew. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:matadorr:4063 2006-05-14T15:36:40Z 2006-05-14T15:36:40Z <a href="http://photobucket.com" target="_blank"><img src="http://i5.photobucket.com/albums/y157/spify/Picture076.jpg" border="0" alt="Photobucket - Video and Image Hosting"></a> urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:matadorr:3663 2006-05-12T00:26:03Z 2006-05-12T00:26:03Z how do you know to trust someone? <br />seriously, wtf. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:matadorr:3495 2006-05-07T23:51:00Z 2006-05-07T23:51:00Z you can't be free till you've lost everything urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:matadorr:3221 2006-05-03T01:17:59Z 2006-05-03T01:17:59Z understand me. <br />trully understand me. <br />i try to understand you. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:matadorr:2836 2006-05-02T00:13:19Z 2006-05-02T00:13:19Z the urge to pick up the phone and call her.<br /><br /><br />the urge to punch him for what he did. <br /><br /><br />the urge to jump.<br /><br /><br />we all have urges. <br /><br />whether we act on them or not is what it comes down to. <br /><br />the urge to be free and to free your urge. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:matadorr:2790 2006-04-26T22:31:32Z 2006-04-26T22:31:32Z we want this like everyone else urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:matadorr:2311 2006-04-25T00:56:18Z 2006-04-25T00:56:18Z weird. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:matadorr:2169 2006-04-24T01:31:37Z 2006-04-24T01:31:37Z sad is calming. sadness gives you time to reflect and think about the problem is. what did i do wrong?, what is wrong?, why? ,when? all these questions could lead to anger. anger isnt calming. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:matadorr:1933 2006-04-22T17:06:41Z 2006-04-22T17:07:47Z As you grow you try to find yourself. All this time iv'e been trying to figure out what i want from life ,what i want to be, who i want to be , but i couldent figure it out. i thought about it for a while now, maybe a year or two. i noticed that you make your life, w/e i do contributes to who i am as a person. i dont think i have to know what i want to be. I think by trying alot of things, being open to alot of things as an adolescent, i will naturally develop into what i will be.<br /><br /><br /> i am what i am . haha urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:matadorr:1635 2006-03-26T03:10:20Z 2006-03-26T03:10:20Z ..and if im nervous i wont show it, my words still come out right...... urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:matadorr:1496 2006-03-16T23:09:07Z 2006-03-16T23:09:07Z i take the train home from school. i feel a sudden urge to eat ketchup while walking home. this how i know life sucks, i look forward to eating ketchup. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:matadorr:1085 2006-03-15T02:09:34Z 2006-03-15T02:09:34Z myspace. why is it so addicting? i think there are a few reasons for this.<br /><br />1) if ur a loser it lets you look at the wonderful lives of wonderful people. All these people arent really wonderful but they make it seem as if they are. This gives the loser somthing to dream about.<br /><br />2)If you are a stupid girl who NEEDS attention <br />you'll probably take a picture of urself half naked, then get more friends on myspace, then get alot of picture comments, and all this will lead to you raising your self esteem by people telling u that your hot.<br /><br />3) other reasons -- to show your art work, to communicate with people and meet people, to talk shit, to make it easier to let people know how you really are despite what they think of you. <br /><br />yea theres alot more but. ionno. to much writing urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:matadorr:829 2006-03-14T23:58:02Z 2006-03-14T23:58:02Z life is constantly changing. people want change, so life wont be boring. Unexpected things happen and then you hope life doesnt change. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:matadorr:535 2006-03-02T02:41:07Z 2006-03-02T02:41:07Z life is one big dissapiontment. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:matadorr:398 2006-02-27T02:59:50Z 2006-02-27T03:00:28Z "a father is more then one who provides shelter, food, and body coverings"<br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br />its only you and my mother.